The one and only constant aspect of my life has been my art. I have never planned or controlled an artwork apart from when I was at school or college; and even then I found it hard to manipulate what wanted to be expressed. After many years I realised that I was creating images of energy, spirit and the unseen world around me.And it took a good few more years to realise that I was connecting directly with specific souls through my art. Mainly my own spirit guide who had been waiting for me to fully acknowledge his presence so that I may consciously work with this gift and help others to connect with the loving energy that surrounds them too. For those of you who think this is crazy, don't worry, I still get blown away by it all and I am one of the most stubborn people I know. I needed proof, validation, explanation....and I got it, over and over again.
Most of what I have learnt about in my studies of metaphysics, energy work and the science of the universe, has been shown to me in my artwork long before I was conscious of what it actually meant. I drew chakras and auras around sketches of people before ever knowing what they were; I drew the flow of energy between people and souls, the presence of guides and very often I would sketch clues as to what health issues I was dealing with. A lot of the times they were images of hope and inspiration when I needed them the most; reminders of the healing energy that we all have flowing from our hearts and hands and of course endless streams of colour that was working to balance my energy just by working with them. Furthermore, when one fully comprehends the truth that we are all one heart, one mind and one united consciousness, then it's easy to see how nothing can be separate from us, it them becomes easy to see how me, as an artist, can pick up a stick of chalk and start drawing the face of a soul as it was in a particular lifetime, When you are connected to the source and accept that we are all of the source then in reality I am drawing the face of someone that I know on some level. Why wouldn't I know what they look like? ;)
Here is a poem that I wrote. This poem comes from the part of me, that was trying to remind me of a truth that I had forgotten. My soul, my higher self knew this already but I wasn't fully aware at the time. This poem was written in 2004. I know it came from another part of me as I have only realised this as truth, within the last three months of my life, much later on in 2017. When reading this poem, one would assume that the poet was fully conscious of the meaning and intent of it's content. There is a clear message in here, but even though I wrote it....at the time I really had no idea what the real truth behind it was. This is why I know it was a message, a reminder and an attempt from that part of me that is fully connected to spirit and a higher level of consciousness to bring some comfort, some peace and some much needed wisdom.
"When the light shines on my eyes, I feel alive and hopeful even if my heart is lonely the sun can be my friend. When the little waves of sorrow trickle down my throat and from my heart, I can fly because my heart gets soft and I can let in all those little trickling waves of love that are around me.
When the sun is shining it beats base into my heart and it makes me want to sing and dance and feel grateful for everything.
I travel all over the place and I meet beautiful scary people and I see them all as babies, on the day they came into this world, into this life and I thank them for looking into my eyes and smiling with me, at least once, or twice or a million times over.
And I thank God for showing me who I am by bringing me all these people, by teaching me that I am them and they are me, and the world is beautiful, and safe, and the world, is my family.
And I'll love them, and them in me, forever...
and on the days that I forget to be grateful , I pray that God reminds me, and that I forgive myself, for doubting LIFE... and for ever doubting LOVE"
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Artist, mother.....actually that should be.....Mother, artist xxx I have always been an artist. It's the one thing that has always come naturally and has stayed with me through all the changes in my life. My creativity has been the one thing that I could rely on for comfort, insight and release. It wasn't until I started studying metaphysics, that I realised that there was more to my art than just abstract lines and shapes, mystical beings and "fantasy" type images. I realised that I depicted the energy that was around me and others. Unseen auras and colours that really exist around us; chakra systems, thought forms, elementals and spirit guides. I would also draw images that spoke to me of past lives, my higher self and the many diverse aspects of the soul. And then of course, I realised that I had also been drawing my spirit guide, for years. It's quite nice that I had the validation through having first perceived these aspects of life through my creative self, before ever realising they existed. Awesome in fact. So, that is why I fall into the category of being a Psychic Artist. What I depict, exists on a spiritual level but is unseen by most....even me....although since fully comprehending the source and purpose of my art, I have become much more susceptible to the visions of the images that come to me. They are becoming clearer, to the point that I can feel a spirit standing next me; but I am not a medium. I watch what comes out onto the pages and then ask for information or research any symbols etc that may come through, and this is how I learn; this is how I communicate with spirit and with my higher self. I hope you enjoy looking at my artwork. When creating a piece for someone in particular, unique content will emerge that is meant just for them. It's very personal in that way. Over time I have worked with oils, acrylics, watercolours, chalk, oil pastels , pencil, digital media and software.....I have sculpted in wood, wire and clay and have carved into wood and raw cement...I've made jewellery, painted murals and literally used whatever I had available at the time to create. When something wants to come through...it will find a way believe me. I'm grateful beyond words that I can pick up anything that can make a mark or a shape and feel my way through without having to think about it......but you have to be a good listener to be able to do that :)
"To those of you who see me and get it... Thank You
And to those of you who don't but listen anyway... that is Love"