This work was inspired by a vision I had during a meditation in which my heart chakra (energy centre) opened up and allowed in healing energy. I could feel my heart opening up like a large flower many times the size of my physical body. At that time in my life I was going through deep personal transformation and healing on many levels.
The pinkish-orange body is me and my back is arching up from the natural force of my heart/chest opening up so much. The opening allowed both a release of energy in the form of pain from unhealed relationships and traumatic past life memories as well as an influx of loving healing energy from the universe through my guides directly through my heart centre.
I create art motivated by emotions and passion and instinct and allow the communication to come through me via my heart centre.
This is symbolised by the large Octahedron over my heart centre and the striking face within the Octahedron is my Spirit Guide. This guide is a being from another dimension and is pure love energy. This guide protects me, guides me through my art and communicates with me via my creativity allowing me to heal and heal others.
The skull over my throat area in the painting is of an American Lion which are symbols of protection and leadership through knowing one's sense of purpose. The throat chakra (energy centre) is linked to one's sense of truth and living your sense of purpose which is what I was realising at the time of doing this artwork. The presence of a skull in the painting also suggests death. In this case it is linked to the death of my old habits, my old pains and old beliefs and a death to how I used to express myself and connect with the world allowing for a true transformation.
You will notice that my arms in this artwork have transformed into angel wings. This is because when I meditate I become aware of myself as a spiritual being and at this time I was focusing on my spiritual growth and awareness in a way that I never had before.
I also believe that when I leave each physical life and body that I have come to the end of the lessons for that life and that my spirit, my soul gets to "go home" and return to the higher state of consciousness that originally manifested from.
In this artwork I am between the physical and the spiritual realms. A part of me was dying; I was metamorphosing into a newer version of myself closer to my spiritual origins and closer to living in a state of love than before. Spiritual growth, to me, is the one and only reason that I have a physical body. When I have learnt all my lessons, I will no longer need to incarnate into a physical form and will remain in the spiritual dimensions and on the highest level of consciousness. This is why my toe is "dipping into" the pool of the greater and highest universal consciousness which is where I go when I fully let go of my physical body. In this artwork I am partially in the physical and partially in the spiritual realms so I am at the point of about to cross over but am not totally ready yet.
The top of my head is not in the artwork as my "mind" is not present. I have let go of thought through meditation and this artwork focuses on me as a soul rather than as the physical being. Also, as a self portrait this is not about my "face". My face is not who I am.....my soul is.
The watery swirls either side of my head is how it feels when my mind slips into an alternate state and I can swim away into other dimensions.
The Green leaves around the face are the petals of the heart chakra opening up to let in the love and guidance. The face is Green as it is embedded within the heart chakra and Green is the colour of the energetic heart centre. The top point of the Octahedron is linked to the angels above and the bottom is linked to my heart centre creating a geometric connection between the angels and my heart.
The Angel on the left is symbolic of the feminine aspect of my soul often referred to as the divine feminine and the Angel on the right is the masculine energy referred to as "the divine masculine". When these are in balance with each other the soul is in harmony.
This artwork symbolizes the masculine energy coming in with the Yan, sunshine energy into the Yin, darkness energy to achieve balance. The yin side of me was struggling emotionally feeling weighed down and thrown into darkness by being overwhelmed by my emotions. through meditation I called in support allowing my Yang masculine energy to come in and apply the more practical and positive approach to emotional challenges. This reminds us of the usefulness and purpose behind all struggles and challenges. The Yellow on the right is the colour of hope, creation and warmth brought in to heal and uplift through guidance and the divine masculine.
The angels also symbolise a "meeting of the minds", a strong spiritual connection between a man and a woman on a soul level that can come together in the physical world. When a man and a woman unite at a time when they are spiritually aware they are able to fully understand and "see" each other and can communicate and live in a way that embodies true unconditional love.
I fully believe that my spiritual and emotional challenges are opportunities for me to evolve to a point at which I can then fully recognise and appreciate my soul mate and live in a state of true unconditional love.
Octahedron - This geometric shape is symbolic of the heart centre in sacred geometry. It signifies intelligence and a scientific and metaphysical link with spirituality via the heart.
Divine Feminine - This is the term used in spiritual teachings when referring to the evolved feminine energy and aspect of a soul.
Divine Masculine - This is the term used in spiritual teachings when referring to the evolved masculine energy and aspect of a soul.
Heart Chakra - This is the energetic and metaphysical energy centre symbolising love; in particular unconditional love.
Throat Chakra - this is the energetic and metaphysical centre symbolising communication in particular speaking truth and living one's sense of purpose.
This artwork reflects a personal journey but the message in it can be shared with all of us as we are all souls having a human experience. The main message here is to embrace the changes in particular the challenging ones instead of resisting them because when we do we find the true purpose, we grow, we learn and we come to appreciate the lessons and liberation that change and challenges bring us. When we accept all that is and react with dignity, truth and compassion we release the lessons so that we no longer have to repeat them.
the only way to prevent recurring negative patterns is to accept the role we play in our lives and let go to give way to unconditional love.
"To define is to limit"
"Art is the instinctive application of the knowledge latent in the subconscious"